As 2022 ends I must be honest that this has the hardest year of my life.
I had so much hope and optimism when the year started and shortly after that it was shattered into a million pieces.
The death of my son affected every single part of my life.
I have never cried as much as I have this year.
I have never screamed as much I as I have this year.
I have also never praised or worshiped the Father as I have this year.
I can say with certain that if it wasn’t for the secret place, I would not be writing this right now.
As I walked through the valley of the shadow of death it was the Father that hid me and brought me great comfort.
His words soothed my soul and hearing him talk to me about my son and explaining that he was still alive. More alive than ever that he was just outside of time brought this grieving mama great comfort.
As I was comforted by him and felt compelled to start a grief support group.
Grief is cruel, it will steal your peace and your future of joy if you let it.
Trying to get to a place of keeping his memory alive while still living a joyful life is important.
One of the best things the Father talked to me about was how Jared was in the “Great cloud of witnesses and that he was cheering me on to run my race with all that I have in me”
So now I have found purpose again even in death, to make my son who’s life was cut so very short proud that his Mom is running with all she has into what God has prepared for me.
So, as we go into 2023 once again, I am filled with hope and optimism but this time for a completely different reason.
The Father loves us so very much and he waits for us in the secret place to share his heart with us.
I want to encourage you that in 2023 make it your New Year’s resolution to go into the secret place every day and watch it be the BEST YEAR in your life no matter what you are going through.